Rescheduled the test.....

So I rescheduled my CNA test in North Carolina. I hope I pass the damn thing! My goodness. Ive been waiting to take this test for almost two months. I have been being lazy though yall,lol. I couldve been took the damn test. I need to stop with this procrasination shyt.......NOT cool.

Skeptical about friend

Every female has that ONE friend that they wouldn't DARE trust around their man. As for me, I have a friend named "Ashley" who Ive been friends with for damn near six years. She's hella cool and we are exactly alike............however, I wouldn't trust that girl around my man if my life depended on it!lol. Shes a HUGE flirt, and I would notice that whenever we would go out on double dates when we were in high school, she'd flirt with MY date by bending over and brushing up against him, touching his arm, you knowm typical ho flirting shyt. So since then, I've stopped really bringing any guy friends around for her to meet.

But anyway, we have a mutual friend "Tonya" that we really aren't that close with but we're all cool. Tonya has a boyfriend and they all work together. So my friend Ashley has been going to lunch with Tonya's boyfriend and talking on the phone alot with him lately. Now in the back of my mind im thinking "why? that's NOT your man". But I keep my thoughts to myself. So last night, Ashley calls me and confesses that shes sexually attracted to our mutual friends boyfriend and that she wants to fuck him. I side eyed that phone with a quickness. The NERVE of that ho!Messing with a girl who you are not friends with man is one thing, but wanting to fuck the boyfriend of the same friend you hang out with on the regular is another. That's wrong! But she likes him and want to fuck him and apparently, he likes her and want to fuck her too because he invited her over to his house to "chill" this weekend. Hmpf.

This bytch has proved my theory that she is a ho that can NOT be trusted around other females boyfriends. Out of all the men in our area she chooses her friends boyfriend?! Poor Tonya, she's so oblivious too. If we were closer Id say something, but Im not minding anyones business. What happens in the dark will soon come to light any damn way.

I lost my wallet!!!!!!!!

I lost my wallet yall! Which sucks azz because I had all my important shyt in it INCLUDING my social security card! I just pray to God no one tries to use it or anything. But anyway, losing my wallet was a major setback for me. I needed my social security card to have entry into my CNA test in North Carolina tommorow so guess who wont be going? Im hella pissed. But there are always bumps in the road and I am just going to apply for a new social security card, reschedule the test, and go on about my business,lol. I cant let this stop me nor discourage me.

Some men are such DOGS!

Now Im not bashing ALL men, just the men who KNOW their asses arent any good!

So theres this older guy I work with, he's in his early 30's. He's a real cool dude. He's funny, makes me laugh (not too many guys can do that), we talk and whatnot while on the job, etc. *clears throat* He has a tongue ring right? And Imma keep it real, Ive always wondered what it would be like to get ate out by a GUY with a tongue ring (Im not a lesbian even though I have absolutely NOTHING against those who are) and seeing his gave me hope to one day have the oppurtunity to experience it,lol. He's cute and he doesnt look as old as he is.

So anyway, I inquired about his tongue ring one day and he kept it real and told me that he enjoyed giving oral sex and had gotten the tongue ring to enhance the experience,lol. Cool. So EVERY SINCE I ASKED HIS AZZ ABOUT THAT TONGUE RING, he's been doing the little tongue between the two fingers thing and saying little shyt on the sly about giving me the best head i'll ever have in my life, etc, etc. MIND YOU, he has a girl/wife(hell, I dont know what the fuck she is to him)that he lives with and THREE kids.

Now, if this isnt some shyt. He's practically begging me to let him give me head (and I know his ass wants to fuck me too, but uhh NOT HAPPENIN'!)and he has a whole girl at home?! How does a man come to work every day and flirt and say all types of provocative shyt to another female and then go home and kiss his girl with that same mouth?!lol. I dont know what to say about his azz. I mean, why be in a relationship if you dont really want to settle down? I know for a FACT that if I gave him the green light to give me head and do it to me, his azz would be all for it and cheat.

SMH, a damn shame. What the f*ck is wrong with our men? Do they have no shame?

Stop ruining it for the rest of us you ungrateful bytches!

LOL! So I have a new roommate (who just happens to be a very handsome guy in the Marines by the way) and he's is ultimately the sweetest guy I have EVER fuggin' met in my life! I mean, Im not in love with him or anything but I just think he is such a great guy. Anyways, he has three kids by two different women. BOTH of those bytches are ungrateful as hell! He married the girl with his two kids but divorced her because he said she was ungrateful and didnt appreciate him buying a house for them, paying all the bills, and basically supporting her non working azz (given that she was a stay at home mom I guess) BUT still, how the fuck you gonna be complaining and aint got a damn job? THEN, his other babies mother was a mistake(It happens, we all make "mistakes",lol) and he says she's just a gold diggin bytch whos extremely immature.

So tonight I was talking to him and he was like "yeah, from now on Im not giving any more girls my all."

Thanks you selfish bytches. Thanks for crushing this GOOD poor mans spirit! But he was stupid as hell yall,lol. They seen he was in the Marines and had a good head on his shoulders and trapped his azz!lol.

But in all seriousness it happens. We give that "one" our all and basically do whatever for them only to be SHYTED on in return. This results in us entering other relationships with caution (which is cool, nothing wrong with that)but we limit ourselves and pass on giving that special one our all- the one who actually DESERVES it and would appreciate it- for fear of being hurt.

Im gonna be real, I dont really trust too many guys. I always feel like they have a hidden agenda or are trying to be players. With me having a good amount of guy friends who are constantly talking about which chick sucked their dick yesterday and with me being in that so called relationship I was in, who could blame my azz?! lol

Man Problems?

So I was texting my friend earlier today and aparently she's going through some man problems. Now Ive just recently been through "it" with I guy I thought I was in love with (womp womp glad to say thats a wrap) so I kind of consider myself an expert on love,lol. So, anyway the guy shes dating isnt acting like a real boyfriend to her. They havent had sex in months, he's always hanging out with his friends, and sometimes he goes without calling her. Now, I say "ok, fuck him move on. Its obvious he really doesnt want to be in a relationship" but she's not hearing that. She basically says she's going to keep him around and use him for rides and that it feels good to have someone she can call her boyfriend. Girl BYE! Please! From my own experience, I feel like she's wasting her time. OK yeah she claims she's just using him for rides but yet and still she continues to complain about him not giving her any attention (bewildered??).

So I've come to a revelation:

I believe if your're not getting what you want or feel you deserve out of a relationship LET IT GO! I wasted almost a year and a half on a guy who I KNEW wasnt right. It was a huge mistake on my behalf but you live and you learn.

10 things I want to STAY in 2008

The year 2009 is here and I'm glad because 2008 SUCKED ass for me. I couldnt wait for this year to be over and there were alot of things in 2008 that I would like to DIE or vanish before this 2009 year kicks off. Here is my list:

1. Soulja Boy- What a clown this coon is. Yes I admit "Superman that ho" was hot until I found out what the hell it meant. Besides, with ignorant comments like "Shout out to all the slave masters" his 15 minutes of fame need to hurry the hell up and be over with.

2. All of these different color ass weaves, especially blonde if your're an African American female. Its cool if you were born with it but not so hot if you were not.

3. Lil Wayne- Can we say overrated? I won't front, "Lollipop" was cool at first but after maturing a little and really listening to the lyrics as opposed to just the beat- BOO. Boy sit down. He has become extremely annoying. I cant even listen to the entire T-Pain song "Chopped and Screwed" because his annoying ass gets on the track at the end and starts spewing a bunch of bull shit that I can't even understand.......

4. Speaking of T-Pain, his new look must DIE. I understand artists trying to be different but seriously, you look like a damn fool and a coon.

5. The saggy pants and oversized shirt look on men. Haven't we already established that saggy pants = "I wanna get fucked in the ass"? Its not cute anymore guys. Put a damn belt on and buy a shirt that actually FITS!

6. Cornrows on both men and women. Especially men! I dont know why cornrows irk me so much now. I guess its just something Im sick of seeing. STOP!

7. This "Im ghetto and proud of it" Phonomenon. It was cool in the 90's and early 2000's but seriously you guys, lets get our attitudes together and start acting like cilvilized people without getting our panties all in a bunch when we think someone is looking at us funny.

8. 16,17, and 18 year old girls having babies. I cant even begin to tell you how many girls I graduated with from High School that ended up getting pregnant.

9. Sarah Palin. Why the fuck is this chick even still relevant? She has already proven herself to be an air head. Is this what America really finds interesting?

10. Wack rap music. Can Talib Kweli, Murs, Common, and others alike get a little more recognition?

Feel free to add to this list! And once again, Happy New Year!