They say its wrong to hold a grudge.........

But my sister has undoubtly pissed me off so bad that I no longer want anything to do with her. I already have built up animosity towards her from the disrespectful way she use to treat my dad when she was younger but some of the things shes been doing and saying lately has really been pissing me off. Im going to get a little personal but this was the purpose of this blog, to express my thoughts. After my father passed I moved in with my sister and everything was cool at first and I had gotten a job so that I could save up for my own apartment, but after awhile she starting saying I was just using her and that I needed to start paying rent. Completely understandable but I mean seriously, I was young and saving to be on my own and paying her rent wasnt something I had wanted to do if I was trying to save and she knew that. But I eventually moved out. And not only because she was always throwing in my face the fact that she was allowing me to live rent free but also because she continuoulsy accused me of sleeping with her deadbeat babies father.

So here we are, almost a year later. Ive relocated to North Carolina and she's still back in Pennsylvania and she's always calling me to tell me how much of an asshole her babys father is. Also, she admitted to me that she paid his rent a few times and that she gives him money every so often but yet and still he still continues to be an asshole. Now my thoughts after really sitting down and thinking about everything is that I cant beleieve she had the nerve to say I was using her when this nygga is CLEARLY using her nut ass for everything she's got! And did I mention she bought him a cheap $2000 car? Meanwhile she had once continously accused me, her flesh and blood, of using her?! Mind you all- I would watch her kids, buy my own damn food, and I was hardly ever there because I was working double shifts at the time!

But what really puts the icing on the cake is that she recently just called me a couple of days ago and asked me if her babies dad called me. When I proceeded to ask why, she stated that he had said something to her that made her think we were still keeping in contact............

That was it for me. I told her to never call me again with this bullshit because I didnt have time and I had other important things to worry about and hung up on her.

The thing that bothers me about women is that some of us cant take a damn hint or let something that OBVIOUSLY isnt healthy for us go! We allow some men to use, abuse, and treat us any ol' type of way and still stay with him while in the process, alientating relationships and making ourselves look like FOOLS!

My sister is a dumb ass. She's dumb for not listening to my father when he told her to leave her babys father alone BEFORE he got her pregnant. She's dumb for basically SUPPORTING his ass by buying him cars and paying his rent, and she was dumb ass hell for calling me and questioning if i was keeping in contact with him. Now I dont want to sound conceited or anything but he's not even on my level and she's seen the guys i usually date and for her to even THINK i would be interested in her babys father is an insult to me.

But Im done with her. I made it my business to cut the bullshit out of my life in 2009 and she had been the exception but now its a WRAP. Shes too old to be on the same shit shes been on for YEARS.

My workplace is about to get shut DOWN!

Which is too bad because it could be a really good place but the people who are running shyt are complete airheads! The state is supposed to be comming any day now to do an inspection and if shyt isnt right, its a wrap!

First of all, they dont have enough staff.

Second of all, their heads are so high up in the air that their really not worrying about whats going on down at the lower level.

Shyt is SOOO unorganized. Let me tell you about this wacky ass Human Resources Director who is in charge of the scheduling; The byth cant perform her job correctly, PERIOD! I had told her troll looking azz that I needed off the last weekend in January because I was going out of town (North Carolina to be exact) and she said ok. Mind you, this was something I had planned BEFORE I was hired so there shouldnt have been any problems right? WRONG. I checked that damn schedule today and this nut azz bytch put me on for the EXACT same days I requested off for. WTF? I was hella pissed and when I confronted her about it she stated it was a mistake, BULLSHYT. She fucks up everyones schedule and I have a feeling someone will be calling me that weekend asking me why Im not at work because Im on the schedule. It never fails. This has happened three times since Ive been working for this company. It irks the hell out of me to get a phone call on my day off from some supervisor at my job. I dont want to be bothered with yall on my day OFF! Ugh! They really need to get their shyt together because this and a host of other shyt that happens there on a regular is unnecessary.

Ok, Im done ranting, thanks for reading,lol.

"Hate My Job" day

Everyone has them. Some days you love it, other days "its ok", and most days its "I hate this damn job!" unless you have a career that you really enjoy but we're not talking about careers, we're talking about jobs!lol. My job is ok. Im a CNA and I just started working at this nursing home. The people I work with are cool but the residents (aka the old people that live there) are rude as hell sometimes! I guess its acceptable because most of them are old as hell and senile but damn old lady, get a grip! Dont get mad at me because you can barely walk or because your family hasn't been in to visit you since you got here!.............yall, im getting a little ahead of myself and Im kinda wrong for saying that but dammit its the truth! If only the money wasnt as good as it is,lol.............Does anyone else ever have a "Hate My Job" day?

Charlotte, North Carolina anyone?

This has to be one of my biggest goals of the year- to relocate. I've been here in Harrisburg, Pa my entire life and I'm sick of it. Not only is it boring here but so many bad things have happened here that i need a change of environment. From my father passing to having to let some fake ass friends go, its definitely time for a new scenary. Harrisburg is cool if your're not originally from here but for someone who has been here their entirely lifetime- not so much. First of all, there is absolutely nothing to do here- no civilized hangout spots or decent clubs. Its boring, point blank. Its just a small city that steals their styles and identities from every other well known city and the one thing that I refuse to let happen is for me to get stuck here. There are so many people that live here that have graduated from high school only to be here doing nothing but gossiping about the same shit that happened 10 years ago. Its ridiculous and only a true harrisburgian person would actually understand what im talking about.
Anyway, Ive been doing alot of research on different locations throughout the country and have decided to visit Charlotte, N.C. Ive heard alot of great things about Charlotte and it was rated one of the best relocation cities in America. I hear its really geared towards people looking to raise families but Ive also heard it was great for young people also.
But there is a problem. I have family here that I don't really associate with so relocating with fear of having to leave my family isn't an issue. However, I do have a sister who has two small children and I'd hate to leave them here by themselves. But my sister is the type who is content with what she has and is afraid of change. I am the complete opposite. I want to move on, explore different areas of the country and the world! But she isnt interested in doing that. What should I do? Should I stay here with her and just convince her to come with me? Or should I just go on without her? I know deep down, that my father would have wanted us to stay together but I can't go through life standing in one place because someone else isn't trying to move along with me. What do you think?

10 things I want to STAY in 2008

The year 2009 is here and I'm glad because 2008 SUCKED ass for me. I couldnt wait for this year to be over and there were alot of things in 2008 that I would like to DIE or vanish before this 2009 year kicks off. Here is my list:

1. Soulja Boy- What a clown this coon is. Yes I admit "Superman that ho" was hot until I found out what the hell it meant. Besides, with ignorant comments like "Shout out to all the slave masters" his 15 minutes of fame need to hurry the hell up and be over with.

2. All of these different color ass weaves, especially blonde if your're an African American female. Its cool if you were born with it but not so hot if you were not.

3. Lil Wayne- Can we say overrated? I won't front, "Lollipop" was cool at first but after maturing a little and really listening to the lyrics as opposed to just the beat- BOO. Boy sit down. He has become extremely annoying. I cant even listen to the entire T-Pain song "Chopped and Screwed" because his annoying ass gets on the track at the end and starts spewing a bunch of bull shit that I can't even understand.......

4. Speaking of T-Pain, his new look must DIE. I understand artists trying to be different but seriously, you look like a damn fool and a coon.

5. The saggy pants and oversized shirt look on men. Haven't we already established that saggy pants = "I wanna get fucked in the ass"? Its not cute anymore guys. Put a damn belt on and buy a shirt that actually FITS!

6. Cornrows on both men and women. Especially men! I dont know why cornrows irk me so much now. I guess its just something Im sick of seeing. STOP!

7. This "Im ghetto and proud of it" Phonomenon. It was cool in the 90's and early 2000's but seriously you guys, lets get our attitudes together and start acting like cilvilized people without getting our panties all in a bunch when we think someone is looking at us funny.

8. 16,17, and 18 year old girls having babies. I cant even begin to tell you how many girls I graduated with from High School that ended up getting pregnant.

9. Sarah Palin. Why the fuck is this chick even still relevant? She has already proven herself to be an air head. Is this what America really finds interesting?

10. Wack rap music. Can Talib Kweli, Murs, Common, and others alike get a little more recognition?

Feel free to add to this list! And once again, Happy New Year!