First time at a gay club....

And had a blast! I'm not gay but I do have a friend who is and he invited me to a gay club that he often frequents in Charlotte. There were gay women and men and straight women and men?(Lol) but the entire environment was so welcoming and fun! I really enjoyed myself. In fact, this was probably the first club that I've really let loose at.

I'm loving North Carolina and this is just the beginning! Summer is right around the corner yall!lol. Can't wait! Now I'm gonna go sleep this buzz off.Your girls an alchi but I didn't go over board this time because I wanted to take the whole experience in.

Good night people.

They say its wrong to hold a grudge.........

But my sister has undoubtly pissed me off so bad that I no longer want anything to do with her. I already have built up animosity towards her from the disrespectful way she use to treat my dad when she was younger but some of the things shes been doing and saying lately has really been pissing me off. Im going to get a little personal but this was the purpose of this blog, to express my thoughts. After my father passed I moved in with my sister and everything was cool at first and I had gotten a job so that I could save up for my own apartment, but after awhile she starting saying I was just using her and that I needed to start paying rent. Completely understandable but I mean seriously, I was young and saving to be on my own and paying her rent wasnt something I had wanted to do if I was trying to save and she knew that. But I eventually moved out. And not only because she was always throwing in my face the fact that she was allowing me to live rent free but also because she continuoulsy accused me of sleeping with her deadbeat babies father.

So here we are, almost a year later. Ive relocated to North Carolina and she's still back in Pennsylvania and she's always calling me to tell me how much of an asshole her babys father is. Also, she admitted to me that she paid his rent a few times and that she gives him money every so often but yet and still he still continues to be an asshole. Now my thoughts after really sitting down and thinking about everything is that I cant beleieve she had the nerve to say I was using her when this nygga is CLEARLY using her nut ass for everything she's got! And did I mention she bought him a cheap $2000 car? Meanwhile she had once continously accused me, her flesh and blood, of using her?! Mind you all- I would watch her kids, buy my own damn food, and I was hardly ever there because I was working double shifts at the time!

But what really puts the icing on the cake is that she recently just called me a couple of days ago and asked me if her babies dad called me. When I proceeded to ask why, she stated that he had said something to her that made her think we were still keeping in contact............

That was it for me. I told her to never call me again with this bullshit because I didnt have time and I had other important things to worry about and hung up on her.

The thing that bothers me about women is that some of us cant take a damn hint or let something that OBVIOUSLY isnt healthy for us go! We allow some men to use, abuse, and treat us any ol' type of way and still stay with him while in the process, alientating relationships and making ourselves look like FOOLS!

My sister is a dumb ass. She's dumb for not listening to my father when he told her to leave her babys father alone BEFORE he got her pregnant. She's dumb for basically SUPPORTING his ass by buying him cars and paying his rent, and she was dumb ass hell for calling me and questioning if i was keeping in contact with him. Now I dont want to sound conceited or anything but he's not even on my level and she's seen the guys i usually date and for her to even THINK i would be interested in her babys father is an insult to me.

But Im done with her. I made it my business to cut the bullshit out of my life in 2009 and she had been the exception but now its a WRAP. Shes too old to be on the same shit shes been on for YEARS.

So I finally moved out.........

No I haven't moved to Charlotte YET but I did move out of my sisters apartment. We were beginning to argue waaaay too much and I always felt like I was on pins and needles when I was around her. She's cool and I love her to death but her constantly accusing me of sleeping with her dead beat baby's daddy and her paranoia was really starting to irk the hell out of me. Not too mention there was some illegal shyt going on that I could no longer be apart of,lol. Anyway, I have a roommate now. Its cool, he's cute (lol), and everything seems cool for now but he seems like he has a smart ass mouth,lol. But I wont jump to conclusions or make assumptions so I'm just gonna keep my thoughts to myself for now. But I honestly don't think this is going to work out (thank God Im not locked down with a lease)but I'll keep you posted.

Charlotte, North Carolina anyone?

This has to be one of my biggest goals of the year- to relocate. I've been here in Harrisburg, Pa my entire life and I'm sick of it. Not only is it boring here but so many bad things have happened here that i need a change of environment. From my father passing to having to let some fake ass friends go, its definitely time for a new scenary. Harrisburg is cool if your're not originally from here but for someone who has been here their entirely lifetime- not so much. First of all, there is absolutely nothing to do here- no civilized hangout spots or decent clubs. Its boring, point blank. Its just a small city that steals their styles and identities from every other well known city and the one thing that I refuse to let happen is for me to get stuck here. There are so many people that live here that have graduated from high school only to be here doing nothing but gossiping about the same shit that happened 10 years ago. Its ridiculous and only a true harrisburgian person would actually understand what im talking about.
Anyway, Ive been doing alot of research on different locations throughout the country and have decided to visit Charlotte, N.C. Ive heard alot of great things about Charlotte and it was rated one of the best relocation cities in America. I hear its really geared towards people looking to raise families but Ive also heard it was great for young people also.
But there is a problem. I have family here that I don't really associate with so relocating with fear of having to leave my family isn't an issue. However, I do have a sister who has two small children and I'd hate to leave them here by themselves. But my sister is the type who is content with what she has and is afraid of change. I am the complete opposite. I want to move on, explore different areas of the country and the world! But she isnt interested in doing that. What should I do? Should I stay here with her and just convince her to come with me? Or should I just go on without her? I know deep down, that my father would have wanted us to stay together but I can't go through life standing in one place because someone else isn't trying to move along with me. What do you think?