I lost my wallet!!!!!!!!

I lost my wallet yall! Which sucks azz because I had all my important shyt in it INCLUDING my social security card! I just pray to God no one tries to use it or anything. But anyway, losing my wallet was a major setback for me. I needed my social security card to have entry into my CNA test in North Carolina tommorow so guess who wont be going? Im hella pissed. But there are always bumps in the road and I am just going to apply for a new social security card, reschedule the test, and go on about my business,lol. I cant let this stop me nor discourage me.

My workplace is about to get shut DOWN!

Which is too bad because it could be a really good place but the people who are running shyt are complete airheads! The state is supposed to be comming any day now to do an inspection and if shyt isnt right, its a wrap!

First of all, they dont have enough staff.

Second of all, their heads are so high up in the air that their really not worrying about whats going on down at the lower level.

Shyt is SOOO unorganized. Let me tell you about this wacky ass Human Resources Director who is in charge of the scheduling; The byth cant perform her job correctly, PERIOD! I had told her troll looking azz that I needed off the last weekend in January because I was going out of town (North Carolina to be exact) and she said ok. Mind you, this was something I had planned BEFORE I was hired so there shouldnt have been any problems right? WRONG. I checked that damn schedule today and this nut azz bytch put me on for the EXACT same days I requested off for. WTF? I was hella pissed and when I confronted her about it she stated it was a mistake, BULLSHYT. She fucks up everyones schedule and I have a feeling someone will be calling me that weekend asking me why Im not at work because Im on the schedule. It never fails. This has happened three times since Ive been working for this company. It irks the hell out of me to get a phone call on my day off from some supervisor at my job. I dont want to be bothered with yall on my day OFF! Ugh! They really need to get their shyt together because this and a host of other shyt that happens there on a regular is unnecessary.

Ok, Im done ranting, thanks for reading,lol.

Money isn't everything......

But then again it is. Every since I got this job I've been working myself half to death! Thank God for blackberrys and the internet because without it I'd go insane! Right now I'm at work working a double shift and I'm asking myself "why the hell am I working so much?" I'm missing out on so much shyt. My friend is home for the weekend from college and she had wanted to hang out and go peep that new movie 'Notorious' but guess what I was doing? Working. I think I'm afraid of being broke or something. The Lord knows that when I was younger there were days when I wouldn't eat. Seriously. Yes my dad did the best he could but being a single father with three kids to raise with one income was hard and I vowed to NEVER live that way again. I guess that's where my money hungryness comes from. I can even be carless with it sometimes- which is definitely not cool. Anyway, I ultimately hope that one day I'll be able to chill and not work so much while still pulling in a good income. This degree I'm pursuing in Health Administration can be my stepping stone towards that goal. Money definitelty doesn't make me happy but it sure as hell can buy the things that do!lol. Let me stop.

Everything happens for a reason?

Has anyone ever wanted to really do something but found themselves doubting their judgement? How about, have you ever really wanted to do something but had all types of obstacles and bullshyt get in your way- preventing you from doing what you want or feel you need to do? Well I have. I'm going through that shyt as I type! Sometimes it feels like no matter how much I throughly plan out shyt that I want to get done, there is always a bump in the road or obstacle I must get over. That itself results in me second guessing myself, plans, and actions. I am honestly afraid of failure and doing the wrong thing. I've made so many bad decisions in my life that I often find myself second guessing my decisions and judgement. So how can I resolve this issue that I have within myself? Being afraid and never taking risks seems like the fire proof way to go. But then I wouldn't be living my life, They say God has a plan for us and that if things are meant to be they'll happen. But I'm still wondering what my plan is. Should I just do my regular thing everyday and go to work, come home, hang out with some friends, and talk on the phone all the while hoping that one day, just one day something will just up and happen that will change my life on its own? OR should I MAKE shyt happen and take the risk of failing or losing out?

"Hate My Job" day

Everyone has them. Some days you love it, other days "its ok", and most days its "I hate this damn job!" unless you have a career that you really enjoy but we're not talking about careers, we're talking about jobs!lol. My job is ok. Im a CNA and I just started working at this nursing home. The people I work with are cool but the residents (aka the old people that live there) are rude as hell sometimes! I guess its acceptable because most of them are old as hell and senile but damn old lady, get a grip! Dont get mad at me because you can barely walk or because your family hasn't been in to visit you since you got here!.............yall, im getting a little ahead of myself and Im kinda wrong for saying that but dammit its the truth! If only the money wasnt as good as it is,lol.............Does anyone else ever have a "Hate My Job" day?